Just The Beginning

Since this is my first post I'm trying to find the words to get it started right. All I can do is just speak from the heart and hopefully it'll all make sense.
I woke up late this morning which is nothing unusual for me but I do see it as one of many things I need to improve on in my life. Since I make it a point to take my son to school every morning so we can go over his daily goals I definitely need to work on that particular fault in my personality. He is a Freshman in high school this year and after seeing him struggle for so long with so many different problems I had to take a step back and look at things in the big picture. What I found was not pretty nor did it make me feel any better about my parenting skills nor my husband's. Although we have tried to be the encouraging parents we have tended to be a little too tough on our son especially on things that really needed a more gentle approach. To make it worse we fell into the worse habit of all... The do as I say not as I do habit! I am here to tell you from experience it NEVER works!! Let me back up just a bit and give you some background on why and how all of this has came about.
On December 24, 2009 we got some long awaited but very surprising  news, I was pregnant! After being with my husband for over 7 years and my son already being 13 years old I was finally going to get to enjoy having a baby again. I missed being called "Mommy" and having that little person wanting to snuggle with you just because but after all that time we had gave up on it happening and I hid the fact that I wanted another baby just so nobody including me would be disappointed. Let me tell you I was scared! We were already just on the brink of losing everything and 2 weeks after finding out about our little bundle I was laid off from a company I had been with for almost 6 years. With my husband out of work and now me out of work I had no clue what we were going to do. I did get lucky and got my hands on another temporary job to get us through until I could have the baby but after that I knew we would be right back to where we were before. After struggling to stay afloat we ended up watching it all crash down by December of 2010. With no home, no vehicle, no jobs, a new baby and a teenager we packed everything up put it into storage and moved in with my mother. Not the ideal situation but I knew if we didn't stay together as a family we wouldn't make it through this part of our life. It's not been easy by any stretch of the imagination but I know that as long as we don't give up we WILL make it through and become a stronger family at the end of it all.
At the end of Feburary  I was introduced to an incredible business opportunity and with that I started my journey. I joined a network marketing company and have since been working to get it off the ground. Without a warm market and still battling different obstacles, I am struggling but I refuse to give up! This experience has become more of a learning experience than I originally thought it would be. I've found out that what I thought was normal is not, what I thought I was doing right was not, and what I thought I knew I did not. It's put me back onto a path I had strayed from for many years, the path to self improvement and educating myself. I've started reading more financial books, self improvement books, listening to those that can inspire and motivate me, and above all it's caused me to start asking meaningful questions again. This is by far the hardest yet most rewarding adventure I've ever had. It's taught me more about myself and what I had become than anything I've ever done in my life to this point. These truly are life long lessons that I know I will take with me far into the future.
This morning as I was waiting for my sweet baby girl to get up I was reading The Business Of The 21st Century by Robert Kiyosaki  which made me start running all these questions through my head that I NEED to find the answers to:

-What do I have to offer?
- How do I learn to be successful?
- Who do I find to teach/mentor me to help me achieve my goals?
- What are my goals (short term & long term)?
- How do I create a plan to reach those goals?
- What can I do to improve myself as a mother, wife, daughter, sister, and provider?
- How do I create and lead a strong successful team of like minded individuals?
- What path am I currently on? Is it beneficial to me and my family?
- Where Do I Begin?
- How Can I Be A Positive Influence On Others?
- How Can I Improve My Overall Health -- Mind, Body, & Soul?

As I find the answers to these questions I will post the answers and how I found them plus as I find the way to improve my overall standing in this life I will post it. This, to me, is the most critical part of my journey.... sharing my story with others so that hopefully somebody somewhere can find that one thing that they have been looking for to help them in life!!!

"All of us might wish at times that we lived in a more tranquil world, but we don't. And if our times are difficult and perplexing, so are they challenging and filled with opportunity."
~Robert Kennedy~